It's four O'clock in the morning, We'll wait

Look'e 'ere it's a nuvva blog posting!
Yet again!
I was so lazy today I made obesity look like hard work!
I discovored that if I don't have something to do, I do nothing.
Really stupid.
So stupid
I feel as though I need some brain activity.
Some Brain activity.
I'll be kind of glad to start school again.
Then It means I'll have things to do all day long.
Rather than feeling guilty about my own sheer Incompotince.
I think that's how you spell it..
Sooooooo Lazy!
Sooooooo Cold!
I posted my friends some comments on Bebo.
I hope they read them beforre tomorrow.
Cuase it's about Tomorrow
I know ringing is much more direct
But I don't like diturbing people with stupid things.
Also I really hate those silences you get on the phone
where NO ONE TALKS.
It's just like you're holding the phone to your ear..
.. For fun.
But it's not.
Ah well..
Pyramid head is quite cool, Fucking scary! But quite cool.. Actually, no, just scary, fucking scary!
If I was stuck in a silent hill situation I would want Either Cillan Murphy or James Franco with me..
why? I'll tell you why!

Cillian Murphy
-Cause he seems like he would calm the situation down and just be all "yeah man chill, It's just monsters!" But like all Irished Up. He seems like he could handle that situation quite nicely!

James Franco.
-I suppose Really the same reason He seems cool and relaxed, He might be slightly more pesimistic and realistic though, being a spokesman for Gucci wouldn't really add anything..

Stop! What's that sound? ev'rybody look what's go'n down

I had nothing to do today .
I considered calling my friends.
but then I thought if they didn't have enough money to catch the bus out to my house.
it might be a bit mean.
Because I wanted all of them to come.
I just didn't want to be by myself today.
but I was.
Cause mum had to work.
dad was away.
My brothers don't even live here anymore .
so there was me.
alone .
in the house .
waiting for a telephone call .
just anyone.
saying.
"yeah we're coming round, hope your not in your pj's or anything."
But I was .
maybe my Pj's were blocking all incoming calls.
so really about 20 people rang.
just my Pj's were absorbing the radio frequencys.
That sucks.
really bad.
I just wish I had something to do today.
rather than being alone in the house!
fuck I hate that!
seriously.
I like being alone.
but only when I feel like it.
I didn't feel like it today.
I just wanted to talk to someone.
go out somewhere maybe.
But I didn't.
I didn't do anything.
nada.
nope.
not a single thing.
I didn't even watch tv.
I just..
..sat
and looked.
Really depressing.
It started raining.
That didn't help.
Then it was really windy.
that didn't really affect me so much.
but the rain did.
I thought what would it be like to just sit out in the rain.
so I did.
I got wet.
I sat there for 25 minutes.
In the wet.
It wasn't very satisfactory.
Kinda cold.
Had rice for lunch.
it said on the pack
"serves two"
Yeah, you can see where this is going.
I decided to sit in the living room
That wasn't fun.
at all.
cause it was empty.
Like a dictators promises.
Like a glass of water that's been drunk.
Like a tourist destination during an economic downfall.
Like a battlefield.
Like the instant rice packet that serves two.
Two empty vessels
Making no noise.
The last tumble weed.

Expedition: Training supervision assesmant

Mum wants to take me into town tomorrow

It might be fun

But it might not be

I mean mum and me?

In town?

In public?

eeeeeeeeeeek!

I mean she's cool and all but come on I'm old enough that I don't want people to baby me all the time!

But really I think she just want's bonding time seeing as Dads away..

I think she gets lonely..

..Sometimes

Not all the time mind you but sometimes..

Cillian Murphy IS a babe..

..I watched like two movies of his back to back last night..

It was great!

Really ..

Really great..

AHHHHH!

Great!

I wish Matthew Gray Gubler would star in more movies!

OI MATT! IF YOU'RE READING THIS STAR IN MORE MOVIES! JEZZ ARE YOU LIKE TOO WELL KNOWN FOR THAT KIND OF CRAP? EH? EH? EH MISTER?!?

Yeah that's what I thought!

silly goose!

I would never speak to him like that in real life!

Unless y'know It was called for..

Cause then I would..

I might be dis respectful in america to not yell at people all the time..

cause the scream at eachother all the time on T.V

Americans are weird!

really weird!

Hmmmm

Caravangio!

Looking good in print!

Well, that's another yearly holiday over! Such a family time! Everyone sitting around the fire sharing stories and songs, not quite that story book like but It's nice relating it to that. I like thinking of family things like that. I would have to say sunday was quite tame and dull, I just kind of stood around not wanting to talk to anyone cause I have a huge family and sometimes I can't remember anyones names, But I have devised small conversational interludes that you can slide in which really say"uh what's your name?" I have devised them especially! and It's things like "oh how do you pronounce your name?"or " ..hold on how do you spell your name?" cause Y'know alot of my family have really weird names so it's acceptable to ask "How do you say that?" or "how do you spell that?" That's this holidays lesson kids! Next holiday how to budget christmas presents without spending a dime!

I suppose Sunday had to be one of the not so good Easters, In fact this weekend has been one big "not so good" Easters, And easters a family time and what's dad off doing? he's down south spending easter on a tramp rather than with his family, I love my Dad but sometimes he can be the bigist, stupidist dick ever! And Nobody except me and my mum actually turned up to go to my Grannas, Everyone else was off being grown ups! but what ever! It's not like I care They can do there own crap!

I should do something , maby go write a story, or draw, or something.. Hrm..

BABE!


Gudbai!

Explorations: A guide to putting discovory into the expedition section

I was so pleased with myself that I finaly learned how to post pictures on my blog! So that's mostly why I went a bit crazy with all the things that make me smile. But I suppose it's quite easy to make me smile Unless Y'know you insulted me or something but even then I would still probably smile.

I have decided Cillian murphy Is a mega cutie tootie!

I mean Just look at him!

Seriously! I wonder what It is about him That is just so attractive! although It could be just me But I'm sure heaps of you people out tha'r will agree.. He's a major lad!

I'm not to convinced on this one I found it and It made me chuckle cause he seems like the kind of person to like Ice blocks.

Sigh I'm really a great one for procrastinating about things I have this drama assesment tomorrow and Just to set the record stright people Drama is not easy I mean performing is fine! but there is jut soooo much paper work involved and that's where people fail! I have my performance and I have my hand My potfoilio Tomorrow, I really need to get started on that one
Oh lordy.. For some reason I'm sort of dreading tomorrow I just don't want tonight to end! I have so many things I need to do, This is soo wasting my time argh! You! go study now! You shouldn't be reading my blog! you have better things to do! I wish I had better things to do, I really don't want to go to school tomorrow But it's really important that I do this assesment really well!

I was really happy last saturday because I finally got new pointe shoes! And now I can dance properly without feeling like I'm going to kill myslef! and they had that new pointe shoe smell! It's Really satisfying where you put them on for the first time after wearing death treps of shoes for an age! It's like walking on that stone fence that's by the foot path as your walking to the library. Genius! But nobody cares about that Kind of crap I really wish something would happen that I could just be like "Yeah thst's so cool I'm gunna go home and blog about that!" but It'
s always the same "Oh school today,.. oh my chilhood,.. oh look new shoes!"
I'm gunna start listing!

My favirote things!
~MATTHEW GRAY GUBLER!
~ BROWN EYES!
~Blueberries
~Mannos Takeaways
~French toast
~PEANUT BUTTER!
~ My dictionary
~GREEN TEA
~My cats
~My brothers
~Hills
~cities
~long expanses of really real green grass
~Sitting
~Fuzzy Blankets
~Sunshine (In moderation)
~showers
~the colour green
~English
~Drama
~Bus rides!
~water
~apples
~cinnamon
~apple crumbbly
~Hot water bottles
~Stethascopes
~Hot water before bed time!
~greek salad
~Dairy milk!
~Vanilla
~Carrots
~clear skin >:( Hate it when I get pimples! but everybody does so..
~Hot cross buns!
~The feeling when your clothes have just come out of the dryer
~Macaroons
~over sized cardis.
~ROMAINIANS
~MY BUDDIES!

Sigh I need to do my drama I could just go on forever.. well not for EVER I mean just quite a while But your're probably not very interested.

BAI!
Kateisnotmynameit'snotevenclosetomynamerahahahrahahrhahrhahrhahrha

Take me out!

" things that put a smile on my face!"



So coming home from school walking down the street, thoughts clouded with meaningless crap like "If I died right now what would I leave behind?" I then Began to list everything that I would leave behind. and Thinking how I would actually manage TO die Being hit by a car is to obvious! Maybe something subtle like I passed a rest home and the had a out break of TB and one of the staff members Stumbled out of the rest home blood crying from her open mouth, she embraces the sidewalk oozing grey chewing gum and broken bottles. I bend down to help her but she Died just as my hand comes to help her up, The sallow corpse give one final splutter and gives out By now I'm dripping in blood and the side walk is bathed in the Red paint from this one girl, with no way to wash it all off I return home but by now the Infection has already spread to me Falling in the door of my house, a small river blood gurgles from my lungs, it's in my hands and all up the walls, Falling to the floor, Dead.


Totally unrealistic but it was just a thought. I had many other thoughts too like why I got a N in art?, why Is the human race adapted to have hands?why do I live so far down the street? why are people egotistical? why are people utter dicks? why are people so un reasonable? why are people even around? why people? why? How can someone Kill another ? How can someone Kill ones self? Why have Emotions? For what purpose?

Sometimes if your being really sterotypical about someone you can already tell what type of person they're going to be! Nobody is special! every human has to fit into some sort of sterotype! No Human or anything else in the world for that matter have a purpose! How can we be alive when there is no purpose to be filled? Everthing happen for a reason just like failure!

I don't take failure very well, I fact I don't take very Kindly to people who say I'm a failure! When people say If they had the chance, they wouldn't kill someone they couldn't kill someone because they couldn't bring themselves to end such a special thing such as life well I could!! LIFE IS NOT SPECIAL NOR IS IT A THING TO BE CHERISHED! We're are all expendable, there is no point to life at all! If we don't even know the meaning as to why we are here! maybe everything is just a Stupid accident that we all came to be here! maybe If you Killed someone you would be doing them a favor that way they wouldn't have to deal with the moral perils of the world!

Sometimes I wonder what It would be like to be a different person like a completely different person you wouldn't be problem free it just depends weather its sickness or weather it was mental Sometimes when I think of thing like that I think of my child hood. I never really had the best child hood in the world (schooling wise), I was always taken advantage of , and for some reason people just didn't like me, that still happens all though now I don't really care as much, but when I was little I never did anything wrong to anyone, so as a result I had quite a lonely child hood It's something I don't tend to talk about much, But even then Even now I still remember how I felt, I still feel it But It's been numbed for a long time. When I was little I was always made fun of because I was really shy, Not personality wise, Because before I went to school I broke my skull and It affected my social skills ad concentration skills, so whenever people bullied me I couldn't really understand what they said or what was going on which made me more upset so I could never actually physically talk to anyone, so I had no friends, except there was this one girl who always said "hi" And I kind of thought of her as my friend even though I didn't remember her name But I did always remember her she made me feel worthy when I was sitting alone under the tree with my books at lunch times.


WOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH TEA TIME~!