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I was thinking as I was walking home today I have to be the worst person in the world, Not like Hitler or anything But I'm just not useful or a contributer, Ok so I'm SOOOO not good At dancing Honestly I'm too gangle-mangle and spazm-y and The only aspect of dance that I AM good at is flexibility I'm not good at drama, other people are so much more natural that I am, I feel like I try too hard When I'm not and everyone is just so much more better than me. I'm not good at art or drawing or anything, I'm not good at English,or maths, or science I'm not even funny, I'm not quirky I'm just kind of a sponge that everybody ignores I could never ever actually make it in any kind of job that I'm interested in the only thing that I could be good at would be a comatose or contortionist, seriously I have nothing I'm good at. Everyone around me has their own really defined thing that they are good at.. Then there's me vacant, stupid, ugly me..

For peanut butter there is no other!

So far this blog has been somewhat lacking In posts. I have been super duper busy Lately, what with friends and school and what not. But Y'know what I really dislike?!? Being Shunned when you are trying to pleasant!, I mean actually going out of you way to say "Hi!" to someone in the Hallway, Waisting your breath, time and useful energy that you could have used for something important, like I don't know recycling or something like that! want to know why I'm saying this? well Yesterday I was walking down the Hall before school started, and I was In a really happy mood, The Kind where you feel Your ontop of the world, Not in orbit AROUND the world Cause then You'd just be High and be acting like a bit of a twat! anyway I see Jasmine , Now there's a whole Issue With My Friend Rachel and her "ex best friend" Jasmine, I Used to be alright friends with her, But when I started hanging out with Rachel And Mikee I suddenly got a very very cold feeling from her , I was still pleasant towards her, But I just got the feeling that she really started to not like me.. alot. So there's me In my happy go-lucky mood and I see her walking down the hall I stop I front of her and I say "Hey!" She Ignores me as she walks past I say "Hi" Again (as if she didn't hear me the first time) And she doesn't say a word, Then all of a sudden my good mood just comes crashing down like some Mood plane being run by terrorists, falling down on suspecting people! And I know My friend Chelsie Is good friends with her Cause they talk about.. "stuff" But Y'know even when I was Friends with Jasmine I felt as though She didn't want me to be, Like whenever I rang, She'd never return my calls, I'd leave messages but no reply, And when me and Her and Chelsie were all in maths last year I was always left out of the conversations because It was always about yaoi, or slaughtering animals and don't get me wrong, for chelsie thats all normal I mean I've lived with her being into that stuff for years! But I guess being left out of those conversations was Good in a way Cause then that meant I was focusing on my work.But Just I always felt really left out of that Group with Jasmine. Waverny and Narrica, I felt we never really had anything In common and we were just Taking a ride on eachothers company so none of us were lonely, Y'know that couple you see as you're in the car driving down cuba street You know they date, you know they were once in love They have the look of a past lover about them, The clothes From Halenstines and Glassons ,but they've been worn, it's nothing special this date, they were just freeloading on eachothers company, hoping something might come around and light the fag of Romance, that way there would be something to do till you die, rather than dying of lonelyness. Mans two greatest fears, Death and lonelyness (thanks Mikee)

But Y'know me and chelsie have been Really good friends for a long time, Two one legged men, And I 'll say this cause it's not like she's ever going to read my blog, or at least this far down, But, and I really hate to sound all corny and cheesy like a corn and cheese toastie, But I kinda can't Fathom not being friends with her I can't Fathom not being friends with any of my friends, Shes been there in so many parts of my life, I just love her to bits! My other friends too Rachel and Pragma and Mikee, I know you guys are going to see this, But I Love you guys! heaps! Iv'e never actually said that and really meant it! And I would be really Heartbroken If we were never friends Or had a dumb argument but I feel we'll be friends forever, well forever untill we die but we can still be friends in the afterlife too! My mum said to me that "friends are the family you choose!" It's so silly and cheesy but she's right! I love my Friends! You guys are my family!